reboot!

it's been too long since my last entry, and for that i apologize. life has been a whirlwind this summer, leaving me feeling slightly dazed and confused on the regular. it's incredibly easy to get sucked into the daily grind of work, work, work, pay bills, work, work, work. square up. work. rinse. repeat. and unfortunately, for a while there, i felt as if i lost my creative insight. no, no, more like my creative motivation. it's easy to lose sight of alternative visions when your brain is swelling with millions of ideas and projects, without a sense of direction or an outlet t express them through. and it's much easier to have all of those electric sensations get lost under the hubbub of bills and obligations and basic means of survival.

it took a long time for me to realize how badly the stress was totally stunting my growth. it's much easier to see when someone else is getting sucked into a vortex of blah versus yourself. but then comes the mind altering moment, when you go what the fuck?!?!?! why have i not been truly thinking of myself for this long?? why have i only been functioning in autopilot?? where did my capability and motivation go??? and even more so, how the fuck do i get that shit back?????

here is where i temporarily have to cut this edition short, but i'll be back tomorrow with and explosion of awesome! and all the wonderful things to come......